How do I get past the shame & make this a more positive experience?

make a list of the things you like about yourself and good things you do/have done for others. turn to God, ask for help with this. ask him to show you what to do with yourself, where to go to meet friends, where to volunteer........it won't be good for you to spend too much time home alone with nothing to do. let me share a profound revelation God gave to me about 5 years ago. #1. Use your talents, that's what they are for. #2. Help others and help will come to you. #3. GOD WILL make a way. #4. Be patient and wait for your blessings. Since then I have turned to these many times for encouragement. Save them, ask God to help you be where you should be. Good luck-you're not crazy or useless or anything like that, you are a beautiful and unique person who can take her experiences to offer help to others.